tension, runsing, and sad

just now i saw my friend said tat she felt bored n sad....

i also have tat feeling...

 the hell gate almost want to open alr...

i m still very afraid about it... 

y i m tension???

coz of the time constraint...

one of i dislike in matriculation life is time is run short..

every thing tat u had learn must understand, if not , then u wil get trouble........

i feel tat i  started struggling in chemist and maths...

i dun know.. 

hopefully my six sense is wrong....

now i have to figure a way tat can maximise my daily free time

so tat i have more time to revise it....

may be wil not write blog temporarily for a short time or seldom write it....

Now, i m very tension and serious about it...

even people make a joke to me , i m afraid tat i cant laugh it...

frustated feel are now always flow in my mind ..

senior always say go to find lecturer for help in studies.. 

but sometimes it is very hard to do it... 

as i regonise tat lecturers were having meeting frequently..

for example, today i alr wait almost a hour to look for bio lecturer.. wait until almost 4.45pm..

she didn't appear in her place.. 

i was very sad coz i need her help to explain about certain bio questions...

try to imagine , i was carried a heavy schl bag , handed a few numbers of thick books...

plus start the class earlier than normal day.. until 3.45pm... (got extra class)

imagine how tired am i???

i was almost fainted......

i just wan to hope my brain will work smart so tat it can help me to understand certain new things faster n efficient... 

and i pleaded to all lecturers try to understand student' feeling when being teaches fast until we have to ask them frequently after class...........